i can see the cocktail of reasons why i was crushed with the on set of a broken heart/mind espisode. i can think of the problems i was having before the belt of psychosis, kind of like a valcano ready to erupth.
When I was fifteen I started getting hit with tons and tons of social anxiety. Before then I was pretty normal, but I can see a few seeds of self destruction in my personality even back then.
I’ve always had some sort of problem or another. But it wasn’t until I was 14 that my parents started getting really scared for me and I ended up going to more doctors.