i feel like when i think back on my memories before sz i was living on autopilot.
going about my days in a predetermined way.
i never remember having the amount of awareness and constant overanalyzation and trouble with decisionmaking i have now.
its like back then i was just cruising through life but now everything takes so many processes that i am overwhelmed and just do nothing.
maybe my memory is just bad or its because i was a 15 year old kid when my sz started but now i feel like i have too much going in my head to successfully accomplish regular human tasks