I’m starting to question less “Why am I here?” or just the feeling of derealization…that everything is fake and blurry and I’m living in a dream. Ever since I increased my abilify to 25 mg the other day. My thinking is clearer, life is realer and my mood is better. I’ve never been so happy…
That’s great to hear
Happy for you. Thats great news.
When I used to take 20 mg Olanzapine and 4 mg Resperidone
LIFE was awesome…
Awesome in a sence
I was very very passive,
no anger etc;
even though I was peaceful I didn’t have better conscious brain
Now after using Vitamin B6 + Sarcosine + Noopept + Selegiline 20 mg
I got a better brain.
Now, I am like a brilliant man with a dangerous disabling mind/brain disorder
back then I was like a loser man with a dangerous disabling mind/brain disorder
Back then I got fat like a balloon and had to go off meds — I mean no resperidone and 10 mg olanzapine
10 mg olanzapine is worse so much anger
Now 20 mg olanzapine okay
not using resperidone as it causes hormonal problems…
I don’t know if 30 mg olanzapine is good
I really want to be better but I am caught
between two boats
no increased dose/not another anti psychotic
and want to try something new may be another antipsychotic
No doubt large doses are good for brain/mind
but not for health
I had two deep moments of surreality in September. So beautiful was the weather & environment on my walks that I broke down crying. I have a deep appreciation for God’s art, at least the aesthetics of planets, and have developed a deep emotional connection to it all.
I feel like I’m de-transitioning from this world in preparation for the next. I’m not entirely sure, but I keep my hopes up.
congratulations… very cool…