I want to distance myself from those who abused me , bullied me , psychologically tortured me etc and also those who disrespected me and walked all over me and gave if agressive hateful energy at me while excluding me from neighbourhoods (everyone but me … we all superior n perfect n you alone n worthless n hated )
I don’t want them to have access to my energy , spirit , nature , eyes of any if who I am not my space either.
I don’t want to mix with them and we should live on different countries or towns or something or planets …
I never want to feel bad spirits and beings ever again .no access.
I’ll pray for them but I don’t want to feel them or be around them etc
To feel like myself n that my eyes and spirit are in my body and not elsewhere.
At peace and calm and bliss and happy always.
Start exercising again and lose some weight.
Horse riding twice a week but can’t afford it now plus the people at ranch take my time and energy kinda and are not nice n so so would have to try find a ranch somewhere I can “just be me” at .
Maybe I can ride once a year for now.
Have own real estate and live with my boyfriend and dog with fruit trees n veg patch n pool n skinny dip n feel wonderful there own space.
Be surrounded by a better people who value me , love me , care for me and wish me well and treat me well and are good to and for me.
Space to just be me.
I had a moment of being me in my boyfriend’s arms in pool was wow.
Usually so many eyes pretending to be me and yuck ones etc
Have some hobbies like bush walking n start doing .
That are importantly to me!!!
I’m goalless creature . Drifting idk where. I have low expectations for myself it demotivates me to do things I lost passion in many things . I just do little Becouse of boredom
I think goals can stem from deep desires. If you long for something it can propel you to work towards that goal but start small. Write out your end goal then the smaller goals you need to achieve to reach that larger goal. Having smaller “milestone” goals that you work towards the bigger picture can help motivation. For example saying “I want to lose 100 pounds” that might be your end goal, but break it down into smaller tangible goals like “I want to start eating one extra serving of veggies per meal;” and “I want to start exercising x amount of days a week”
I am currently trying to read one youth aged novel a week from the public library, but in French. I am trying to get my French fluency back to where it was.
The sprint triathlon sounds possible, and the ironman does not sound very possible, to normal people.
So that is over 140 miles of non-stop movement for ironman?
Sounds like something navy seals would be capable of doing, and the rest of us can mostly dream about in our action movie fantasies.
Good luck getting there, that must require some serious training and expertise.