Ive been becoming numb and lethargic lately, dont have alot to say. I can barely concentrate on anything. Cant track things in alphabetical order. Feel like im slipping and it has been 2 weeks since I discontinued my ltuda, I start college soon… for he 3rd time im 20 and it seens like a decade has gone Since i passed HS. I dont think its too late to start college but I feel like im at the end of my life. Everyone makes it seems that way. They dont understand whats going on with me. Cognitively. Its like being with a group of friends that try to get you to smoke meth and say cmon do it youre just a p***y they dont get it and I hate them sometimes. Wish they would suffer like this, it would make me happy as devilish as that sounds. My uncle tells me im just a special snowflake and accuses me of being on drugs.
Wow your uncle sounds very unsympathetic. Did you switch to a new AP?
I haven’t All the ANti psychotics make me gain weight, latuda stopped me from going into ehat I think was the begining of a steep psychotic break when I started it I was barely able to construct sentences and had a few hallucinations
Have you tried abilify or rexulti? What about vraylar? Maybe you would feel better if you were on an AP, especially since you’re going off to college.
I have done zyprexa and ill never go on it I did when I was a teenager and I had prediabetes because of it! I lost all the weight and I have abilify but havent taken it yet its on my list of medications that I dont process well however
How do you know you won’t process the abilify well if you haven’t taken it yet?
Pharmico genetic testing
Oh. Do you think it’s worth a shot to try it anyway, even though genetic testing says you won’t process it well? Did your pdoc prescribe you abilify, is that why you have some?
I can attempt it, may as well before I start life one more time
I’m starting university again in September and I’m 27 years old. I graduated high school when I was 18 so it has almost been a decade for me too. I spent four or so years at a hard university before dropping out. Then I took a year off and the next two years at a community college only taking one class at a time. It was really only the last two years that I was really taking classes again. I probably won’t finish getting a bachelors degree until I turn 30 years old. It’s really depressing knowing that my twenties were pretty much wasted. It will take me three times longer to get a bachelors degree than everyone else. It really sucks.
True friends don’t try to get you to be losers like them smoking crap that’s not good for you.
Even zombies like to bite you because they want you to be like them.
Resist the temptation and stand above them, and surround yourself with people who bring you up, not down.
As the saying goes, water seeks it’s own level.
hey man, i hope you can get stable enough for starting college, i was stable a long time before i even considered it and luckily i stayed stable throughout on my med and passed most of it, i even went back and did a bit more and met some great women while i was there, what are you hoping to study?
Neuropschiatry, I want to find a way to effectively treat schizophrenia. Make it the yellow fever of tomorrow 
Perhaps thats a bit premature and grandiose I want to take a few classes first to see where im at lol, I can barely do basic math at the moment
yeah, i think its good to be realistic,
i was like you (kind of) i wanted to be a support worker or maybe even a psychiatrist but i had to start off small, i wanted to help myself and others at the same time kind of like a win win situation, it was going ok but i hi a few brick walls and now i am being more realistic, i know what i am capable of (or what i’m not capable of) so i am just trying to find some permitted work small hours and hopefully build from there.
Since you’ve had the genetic testing, what else did it identify that you could take?