First goal: So you struggle and struggle to make it in society to make a life for yourself as a person with schizophrenia.
Second goal: But I also paradoxically see myself as a normal person trying to make it in society.
And any victory is an achievement . FOR A PERSON WITH SCHIZOPHRENIA.
I’m rambling on here (but Gollum and the evil war crept up and slipped away with her). But anyways I make my second goal only to discover that I can’t face (or its hard to face) what making it entails. It entails being a target. Because that’s basically what life means for “normies” for each other. To paraphrase Bruce Springsteen, any time you have anything you will inevitably run into someone who wants to take it away or destroy it. That’s how life works.