The hospital would have dances with a record player for music. They were always trying to get me to dance but I always refused. I was 21 and tbh, I had only danced once before in my entire life.
But this one night they were holding a dance in the cafeteria and I finally caved and danced with this girl. But not just any girl, this woman was about my age and she was the prettiest girl in the hospital.
It was a slow dance and I just shuffled around on my feet like everybody else was. She was petite and I just remember how great it was to hold her and she felt so fragile and delicate. Then a new song came on and it was a fast song. I looked at the girl and I kinda laughed and said I really don’t know how to dance to a fast song. She looked at me and said, “You’re weird!”.
WTF! I didn’t think I said anything wrong and to hear that from the prettiest girl in the hospital was too much. I was totally surprised and she caught me completely off guard and I was crushed.
It hurt my feelings. I just turned and walked out and I didn’t actually cry but I felt tears welling up.
Then the weird part happened. I walked out and I walked way down the hall to the smoking room which was deserted. I sat down on a bench really feeling sorry for myself. But then the woman walks in. She was wearing a hospital gown and she walks right up to me and sat in my lap and wrapped her arms around my neck. I’m pretty sure I knew what she wanted. But for some reason I can’t fathom even to this day I didn’t do anything! It was a golden opportunity and I blew it and after a couple minutes she got up and left. And then the next day she got back to ignoring me as usual and life went on.