So in PHP I’ve had a lot of time to give thought to what it is that makes me unstable. I would say the main issue is that I have triggers for my psychosis and PTSD that I do not know how to manage emotionally. This leads me to spiral out of control and basically fall off a mental cliff unless I have another person to hang on to. When I learned that other people could save me from the spiral this made me dependent. I did not realize how truly dependent I was on others to keep me safe and connected to reality until a PHP workshop.
So I talked about in group what I could do to fix this and achieve stability and 1) I can get my psychotic symptoms stabilized on meds so those triggers won’t matter anymore and 2) for PTSD triggers that set off my depression or panic I have to learn how to remain calm and bring my attention away before spiraling. This week I hope to work on learning tools on how to do that.
Just felt like sharing my progress I decided to do another week of this because I was finding it so helpful.