One such coincidence: I noticed in my group zoom chat that lots of people took vitamins last night and got insomnia. The weather was very messed up yesterday I felt like the world was venting, or clearing out stress, and releasing toxins. So I am hopeful that I can stop predicting my own words, and know my will and know you also have a will and mind. I am not alone on planet earth.
But I feel as if I am the only one in existence that has a conscience, that is aware. I was relaxing in the sunshine, and resting my head on the grass–and the thoughts that inserted were–you have changed reality somehow, you have this that this that, no one else can see like you…or I have this awareness that has been lost to others.
Then I thought how if my awareness is some lost awareness, ancient, mysticism, whatever it may be that is my awareness–what is my awareness? How do you locate perception…where do you find the source of time…second revelation is…
Is time a contingent continuum line, or on a narrow line, like forward pressed–or do we spin dance and spiral out, like infinite spirals, or a spiral dance or something…or are we a layered reality, some—thing—a layered layer of layers on layers…how would you discern one layer if you believed that the layer you are in, is “the norm” or the right way to do things. Is behavioral medicine just mind-screwing people because I feel mind-screwed sometimes… anyways, no one will understand and people will just remark:
“have you slept, you sound nuts, get away from me, crazy, make no sense, freak, take your pills, just snap out of it, its just a coincidence”
No it’s not its my freaking life.