Does anyone else find they have to go through a lot of pain just to get your head space right at the beginning of each day?
Sometimes it feels easy, other days it’s very hard - like today
Seems to be a motivation issue, but not sure. Might be I need to increase Sertraline, however I don’t want to take more.
I am normally up and about around 5:30am-6am, and then at work by 8am. This morning I laid in bed until 9am in a pure rage that I even opened my eyes and have a whole other day to contend with
My routine has been out the window since mid-December, as I work outside, and my project has not been possible to work on a lot of the time as it has been too wet or cold outside to work with cement.
Everything seems so dis-jointed.
My usual support of my mother is not there anymore, as she is so busy with working long hours recently, so I feel I have no one I can talk too.
The helpline here seem to not be bothered by any of this. My case worker doesn’t listen to my concerns, and the pdoc just thinks I need more meds all the time and I am getting tired of it.
My hope is from Monday, I will have this ongoing project finished, and I can move on and plough through my next planned jobs.
idk. It seems so hard at the moment, without even factoring in Covid-19
I also have been trying online dating, and no one seems interested in me other than people who’re much much older than me who just want sex…