As most of you know I have not only paranoid schizophrenia but also ptsd and I have ran from the man I love so many times in the year we’ve known each other that I have lost count. Last time I ran away (on my b-day) we got into an argument because I ignored him all day and told him I’d fallen asleep and he found out I wasn’t asleep at all. Right now we are trying to work on things by starting out as best friends and although I understand that he wants to wait til his therapy is over and I have more control over my running but that don’t mean I like it. I’m so scared of having a long relationship but at the same time he’s the man I wanna spend the rest of my life with. Can anyone give me advice? Because although I mentched it to my pdoc bout it he didn’t say anything about it at all.
“I’ve ran so many times from the man I love”
I ran so many times from the people I loved too.
because of 
s, so I doubt they loved me back.
lol lol lol lol lol
you can put this thread in Dx’d-Other for more support, I think.