I just want to get on with my life, they make me feel worse every time I go, I refound some hope over my weekend at training, it’s my future and it reminded me I have a future. I have symptoms that are distressing and I get suicidal, but I can find ways around them. I want to look forward not back, I feel I am static, being held back by it. I have been compliant for ten years and I’ve just had enough, they remind me I’m unwell and even though I have symptoms I can get by, I’ll reduce my meds to 200mg, my physical symptoms will stop, I can practice acupuncture, I can walk, write, draw, and I’ll be okay. I don’t want to be defined by my Illness, I just don’t want to anymore. My mum thinks this is a positive attitude because I am no longer being a patient because I have so much more to myself and I do, i want to show the world the real me, I am me, not psychotic. I’m being realistic in my plans, So it can happen im aiming for six months discharge from services. I’m not doing it rash I think if I’ve been under services ten years and they haven’t helped me more than this then there’s nothing else they can do so why shouldn’t I just live my life?
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