It’s been 4 days and I haven’t heard back from my ADHD doctor about the next appointment for TOVA testing. It’s not even a guarantee I can get Adderall even with a diagnosis. It’s possible he could backtrack and change his mind and I don’t even think I want it.
I could end up worse like having worse psychosis. I guess I will continue to drink the energy drinks until I find something else. I don’t think anything will change anyways. I don’t think I can quit the drinks for a week like he wanted me to for the test anyways.
I have delusions I took adderall in a past life and it either made me a lot worse psychosis-wise or it really enhanced my intelligence.
Maybe I just want to continue living this really boring and sad life.
I really just want to get better and not risk anything, which is a change from a couple weeks ago.
I ordered Broccoli Sprouts and Sodium Benzoate. I plan on reading my two new books on time travel anyways.