I’m not unhappy about “doing nothing” today. In fact I’m content. Normally I beat myself up for doing nothing. The result is the same anyway. Nothing gets done. Lol.
I wonder if this is going to be permanent. Am I settling into a life of lazy contentment.
Yeah I’m really afraid of that. I don’t want to be looked at like a failure, yet I’ve spent a lot of time doing nothing and am probably going to spend a lot more time in the future doing nothing. I’ll just hope that they come up with some drug that takes away all laziness and avolition.
My age is what is taking the blame for my being tired all the time. I just can’t seem to get enough sleep. I’m not particularly depressed about it. Call it “enjoying retirement”.
I’ve become an expert procrastinator, honed my skills with the fine art of seeming busy, but getting absolutely not one thing done.
Kinda grows on ya’.
some days it feels good to do nothing… I like it.
some days I can not do much… so I decide to just relax, browse Pinterest for hours and chat on this forum.
I remember when i was doing too much it felt like walking around with a knife in my back. I would HATE waking up in the morning, full of dread for the ensuing day. But here i am again trying to do more, if i get that dreadful feeling again i know i have pushed too far.
But maybe i’ve changed, dont think this life will ever be worth living but i want to go a lil crazier by being more active. which is in-itself the paradox of finding pleasure in things u dont enjoy doing.