It's so hard to just continue sometimes not suicide just suffering

Cos I do so little in my day and have no one I can hang out with.
I’m now going on fukinn bus rides to let time pass lol.
My bro caught me going for a bus ride the other day n he was like wat???
But its better than being in bed all day long!
Well I do also go gym and shop for necessary stuff including food

Wish me luck I need a job, I have just started searching :slight_smile:
It could be the start of much better times

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N I’m scared about pulsating tinnitus that I get at night.

I’m hoping it is a benign form or reversible with a healthy lifestyle.

Do you know of anyone whose had this and then had a stroke?

I used to go on bus rides all the time. I would get so bored being at home alone all the time. I would just wanted around town aimlessly, look around craft and hobby stores, just wander. I kind of miss it sometimes. My anxiety is too high now to go out in public like that.

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If you’re going on bus rides as well you’re doing better than me ! :smile:

It might be a good sign that you’re getting bored it could be some kind of zest for life returning.

Good luck with the job hunt. :four_leaf_clover:

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I agree with this. I started getting bored once the Zyprexa started controlling all my positive symptoms. Before, I left the house once a week for 1-2 hours and that was it. Feeling better, I’m volunteering twice a week, job hunting and driving myself everywhere. I do a lot of reading now, like 10-12 hours a day, but I could be much more productive earning more at work than I get on disability. Maybe you’re ready for your next chapter too!

Good luck on the job search!

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Ooh gd luck with the job hunt. That’s an exciting step. And signals a positive progress in your condition.
10 to 12 hours reading is amazing. Nice one

it was kinda bittersweet seeing @Jonnybegood getting a job.

I feel so worthless. Do what you can, @anon90843118, you be knowing the vibe to get out.

Why your brother be like that> no idea.

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Lol he is just concerned wat I’m doing why I don’t tell them n we can just hav played a game. But thx
Yea it’s kinda nice going out it’s true it just gets slightly monotonous. I need to vary the routes I suppose.
Ya I’m really happy for @Jonnybegood too, he really deserves it.
You ain’t worthless hope the feeling goes I’m sure there’s people who appreciate you and plus on here :slight_smile: :slight_smile: take care @Daze

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You’re very brave to go out in public and shop for yourself!

I wish you well on your job hunt.

I’m sure something good will pop up sometime soon.

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I made a grilled ham and cheese sammich. Provolone. Yummy lol

How are you? I’m nearly comatose from all the food lol

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Yes, harness that energy and get a job! You sound ready to focus.

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Trish, :slight_smile: I am well, thank you.

Those sandwiches you made sound yummy!

I just woke up from a super long nap. Having some tea right now.

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Thanks @chordy yes I’m ready to focus. whether I’m ready to persevere long enough not to leave work idk but I think maybe yes! :blush:

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I got the sammich idea from YOU! I just woke up, myself. Had some freaky dreams.

I hope you are well rested, healthy, and happy. Take care!

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