But I’m more reserved, make connections less, see life as more fake. I consider it a blessing but sometimes I get frustrated. In my IOP I’m the only one with psychosis I’m aware of and my perception of reality is way different. It’s NOT that I can’t compete, but more like I can’t relate. It’s the difference between a heroin user and an LSD user. In fact that’s the exact situation. But the heroin user sees the world as real they are constantly competing and comparing while the LSD user is philosophical, helped in the egocentric “situation”.
I’ve rarely heard voices but I only had to hear them once to know I was different. It’s not the norm by any means. It’s surreal. Supernatural.