I have been trying to get off Saphriis for a while now- you may have heard me mention it- and I am drawing the process out. My pdoc knows this, but I doubt she knows why I’m going so slowly. The truth is, it’s like a drug for me. When I had problems abusing prescription pills, I did it because they allowed me to sleep my pain and troubles away. Saphris is liike that in that it puts me to sleep. If I get off Saphris, I don’t have that any more, so a big part of me doesn’t want to get off of it. Even the lower dose that I’m not on knocks me out. I don’t know what to do with myself when I’m awake unless I have special plans (i.e. grocery shopping, going to the movies), in which case I have to either skip my morning pills or drink TWO Monster energy drinks, which agitates my TD severely.
So it’s pretty much a drug to me. I am scared to get off of it, and I’m equally scared to stay on it. Right now, I am taking 5 mg/morning and 10mg/night. I asked my pdoc if I should move to 5mg/night now or if I should cut out the daytime pill and just do the 10mg. I’ll see what she says tomorrow. In the meantime, I’m really stressed. I feel like I am getting off of my med abuse all over again, but this time, I was allowed to sleep the world away. And, for the record, 5mg makes me sleep just as much as 10mg.
Does anyone have any advice for me? I know it needs to stop; I really do want to live life again. However, I feel like I don’t know how because it’s been so long. I’m not having withdrawals, just fears. I would love some ideas. @77nick77 I know you had problems with drugs. How did you start living again? Anyone else? Thanks in advance.