It still remains a mystery


why we are symptom free at all


I don’t really consider myself symptom free. There are still some acts in my head circus that like to keep preforming.

But I’ve seen the show before and can ignore it better.


My pdoc is trying different dosages of medication so I will be symptom free. I have been dealing with the side effects more than the sz.


it certainly is a mystery to me. I was symptomatic for six years straight, all wrapped up in it, then it begins to subside and next thing I know I’m symptom free for well over a year. Then a few months ago the symptoms return for a couple of weeks before completely going away once again and haven’t returned since.

If only I could be anxiety free now, but as this has existed long before the onset of sz and is rooted deep in matters beyond my ability to change I don’t see this happening any time soon.


It remains a mystery to me how I could have survived without pills for five years after three or four years of bad symptoms. I must have been symptom-free, but maybe I had a few unrecognised symptoms still there. Then I relapsed two years ago and haven’t been off meds since. If I even try, my symptoms return. How I coped for five years without meds I don’t know!


I have a lot of different symptoms - I can count on at least one symptom flaring up during the day or night, now it is anxiety and depression that seems to be standing out


I do have suspiciousness and hostility.