So, I don’t hear voices, have visual/auditory hallucinations or cognitive deficits.;
What I experienced was a series of odd behaviours and mannerisms before I was put on anti-psychotic medication.
I left my flat one day, and discovered I could not walk back. I felt an outside force stop me from moving. I ended up staying in the streets for two weeks. I used to stand on street corners, feeling stuck and unable to move, running through a commentary in my head with what felt like an outside force
It felt like I was trying to solve a puzzle with a demon. I did things like walk a certain distance, then stop, stare into space and repeat. Although I didn’t see things that other people didn’t see, I saw energies - for example certain roads or paths had a portal like energy, and I was afraid to walk down them.
In my head I felt I had been setup by the flat owners and that’s why I couldn’t return, and I had to fight against demonic forces in order to return
When I took Depixol antipsychotic all of this disappeared, but I noticed I experienced a complete lack of pleasure, and there was a sensation I was feeling in the middle of my forehead where the third eye is located
Strange thing is I never hear voices or see things. All of the above has now stopped since I’m on an AP but my motivation and feelings of pleasure are nowhere near before
In terms of functioning, I can concentrate but sometimes I feel ‘stuck’ and I’m also very restless.