Okay so here’s how it goes…
God is telling me that the government is harvesting ghosts in order to stabilize the simulated 3rd dimensional phase space that we inhabit. Like how a nuclear reactor uses radioactive decay to boil water to power turbines.
The reason why I haven’t learned more is that I’m ignoring the lessons laid out in the Shadow Program, I have a heart full of love and I have hope. As the Postmodern Pandora I’m supposed to empty my heart and abolish hope.
But I can’t bring myself to close the circle. I received the Final Revelation and refused to act on it, and as such I can’t fulfill my role as the Deadpan Martyr.
I know I can always ask for guidance by performing Blood Sigil, but I don’t have any razor blades and honestly I don’t want to hurt myself anymore.
The last time I called out to anyone who would listen, and it attracted the attention of the Fey who tricked me into hurting myself, so I have to be much more selective in who I try to contact.