I had a symptom that I wanted to share,today at work someone saw me using a alienware laptop(it’s a expensive kind of laptop)and when he asked me if this is my laptop,I said it’s my brother ones(I am always ashamed that if somebody sees I uses expensive things)
Like whenever I sit on my dad’s car,which is a expensive car(in Malaysia)but very common in singapore or United States,i keep thinking people looking at me and I feel ashamed in a bad/psychotic/neurotic way…
I am defitnetly not here to show off how rich my family is because we are only average and impossible to be consider rich,even if you say I am rich,it’s not even my money,it’s my parents,but I just wanted someone to comment what’s wrong with me of these awkward thinking?is this delusion/psychosis or is it low self esteem,please do comment
Addon:it’s a feeling of proud,let’s not say finance wise,I put in a lot if effort to keep my body fit,like I run 4km daily,300 push up,50 pull up,got a nice chest but I am so anxious of taking off my shirt that I feel people are judging my body or like everyone around is looking at me and my body which is defitnetly not true,what’s these?disordered thinking?i think I might need more antipsychotic
Do you ever had these kind of problem?and not able to feel proud?