I’ve always been the type of person that has a gloomy expression on my face. I hate almost everything. I have no friends. Nothing makes me happy. Sometimes i get lonely. I dont know why im so miserable. I just feel born this way.
It all feels normal until people begin to question me about my attitude toward things. On the rare occasion that I smiled at work someone jokingly asked me if I punched a girl scout on the way to work because I’m always so opposite to everything happy, which made me laugh hysterically.
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Such a pretty woman to have so many problems. I am sorry you don’t feel much hope in life. I struggle too with suicide ideation but I have learned NOT to act on them. I tried suicide twice and finally learned I have a place in this earth and it’s not my place to take my life. You have people that care about you and I’m not talking about just on this forum. Hang in there beautiful. I have faith in you.
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I’m sorry odiledecaray and I miss your posts. Props to you for sticking with the job! You da bomb! I dunno what to say I wish I could help more :sad:
You were/are one of my favorite posters
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I’m not suicidal. Suicidal ideation was a very small part of my post. I’m just wondering if some of you are always visibly gloomy and miserable to other people.
I was sort of that way. I could relate…and then when I laugh they act all surprised and it makes me feel worse. Now I’m happier but still not happy. I’ve learned to live in the moment whatever that means…
When I was a camp counsellor, one of the kids called me “the worryingest person ever”. I wasn’t even worried about anything, just looked perpetually upset
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Not everybody is happy. Just live your life the way you are. You’re fine. It’s not a crime to be unhappy. Jukebox is right, you’re a beautiful young women. You have good qualities and you deserve something out of life. I have moments of happiness, I have moments of gloominess. Life is no picnic. But it’s not all bad. If punching a girl scout would make you happy than by all means do it. They smile too much anyway. Give yourself a break and don’t be so hard on yourself.
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Warning Towards Our Picture Of Thine Divine Heavens ,
77nick77 Wants To Punch Girl Scouts …
Thus Is Jus Completely Terrible …
I have some similarities to you. Mostly, I’m just not really engaged with anything around me. The way I handle that is I retreat into my own world where I am content. If you don’t feel like you’re missing out I wouldn’t worry too much about it. The idea is to be happy, and you have to look for the best way to get that for yourself. Look for small pleasures you enjoy. Look for things that make you happy. Don’t worry about what others think.
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I used to worry about being sad - felt I would not be accepted if I were unhappy. I found a less stressful environment and made friends. A lot of the unhappiness was lifted. Life is not so stable -words like murado creep into the language. I was told it means “a lover and a killer” meaning that we are so unhappy that someone who loved you would do you the favor of killing you. Oh, well. Maybe that’s why I don’t trust love.
I don’t like people who make joy a duty. I’m a reader and I probably appear glum most of the time.
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Only advice I can give is to not actively try to share it with others. There are those who need everyone around them to be as unhappy as they are. I find these people to be toxic and avoid them. 
Pixel.
When I took my exam last week, one of the professors that was in commission looked at me and ask 'are you sad?'
There was like seven more people in the room and i felt really awkward.
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Yeah, people always ask me if I’m sad or angry… I’m neither of those things and then I always look confused “Was I giving off that vibe?” “It’s your face”, lol… I don’t care.
You have a little girl, and a beautiful dog, and you are a beautiful person. Those are things that bring joy.
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I have a poem you might like:
I came across a man,
Sitting naked, bestial
In a dessert.
In his hands he held his heart,
And he ate of it.
I said, "Friend, is that good?"
He said, "Ah, it is bitter, bitter,
But I like it,
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart.
Antipsychotic meds don’t really treat negative symptoms in general. Plus they can cause secondary negative symptoms themselves. So looking gloomy may be part and parcel of both the disease and the treatment. It sucks.
here is a heart 
and a hamster 
hug.
and good on you for sitting your exams 
take care 
big bunny 
hug.
take care
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You and me babeness ! We can beat up all the girl scouts ! We can make it !
Jk aside . Yes I have been described as miserable looking mostly when younger…