My name is Vijay, presently staying in Chennai, and I have been suffering from a strange problem for the past eight years.
Initially in 2008 I started to feel that someone is actually controlling me and my thoughts.
Controlling in the sense, a scenario as follows - there was this particular person who will send emotions through telepathy and have me react to it, she understands the emotions and thoughts of me only to make me fear, she constantly do this with the motive of harming me. She does this 24x7 and physically press me, control my thoughts and I will not be able to focus on what is going on surrounding me but keep responding to her (often talking to her) every second. I talk to her, plead her to leave me so that I can focus on what is going on around me. This happened for 6+ years 24x7. I was not ready to take medications because I was completely believing that someone is actually controlling me and there is something called telepathy. During the course of 6+ years, the person who is controlling me switched hands with different persons initially there was a woman, then a professor, then a bunch of other people. I can even pin point who was actually controlling me, I can even name them.
Off-late in 2014, the external control started to reduce, I started to realize what was going on around me, I can sense the world around, see things happening which was not possible until then. Even though I can see and sense things around, I was not able to focus, think, concentrate, talk, interact with anyone. I would prefer to stay like a dead person. I still am the same way. Although the external control reduced, it kept haunting every now and then, but the frequency keep reducing and today the external control is very minimum but I still find hard to focus, concentrate, think, interact, talk and prefer to stay like a dead person. This is a huge problem. Another important problem is memory loss, if I happen to talk with someone, I usually forget the context while talking and project a blank face. It is very difficult to recollect things. Another thing is I feel something constantly pressing on my forehead and this pressing sensation is there 24x7.
Is this really Schizophrenia?
Please help with the right direction.