I’d read Eric Hoffer’s The True Believer years ago, followed up over time by several of the better books on cult dynamics like Arthur Deikman’s The Wrong Way Home: Uncovering the Patterns of Cult Behavior in American Society, Mark Galanter’s Cults: Faith, Healing and Coercion, Margaret Singer’s Cults in Our Midst and Kathleen Taylor’s Brainwashing: The Science of Thought Control, as well as others by Steve Hassan, Michael Langone, Joel Kramer, Flo Conway and Christian apologists Walter Martin and Stephen Arterburn.
I’d been active in a human potential cult when I was younger, and wanted to know more about how it had affected my thinking. By the time I read most of these books, I was a lot more schooled in human behavior, and I recognized the similarities between the way cult members, paranoid delusionals and certain other psychotic patients think.
All of the books were useful, but none of them explained the psychological makeup of the “belief-needy” as well as Hoffer did way back in 1951. He saw – and described – the disempowerment of the healthy ego, the frustration, the denied sense of (learned) helplessness, the lack of functional identity, and the dire need to be a part of something bigger than one’s broken little self in ways anyone can understand.
The minds of the zealot, the mass murderer, the terrorist, the fascist, and the racial exterminator all came in to very clear focus, as did the mind of the un-medicated paranoid schizophrenic.
I saw myself in its mirror. And I was able to let go of a lot of the thinking that kept me in mental suffering for so many years. I am far from “100% well” now, but I am far from “100% sick,” as well. (And one need not worry that I will be taking any of the vengeful junk I was thinking 15 years ago seriously.)
Is anyone else here a cult escapee?