I have all the time intrusive thoughts about “career”.
I am an invalid and I think there is nothing I can do about it.
I doubt that there exists a method to " make me fly"( יטיס אותי in Hebrew).
I all the time have intrusive thoughts, about working at a university,
about getting a job at the headquarters of a company,
but this is all ■■■■■■■■, at least AS OF NOW as I can’t do anything.
I don’t want a " career" but I all the time have these intrusive thoughts.
I hear voices whether I want to be a doctor, I counter them with mantras that I can work any job I like,
and I continue to suffer from intrusive thoughts/voices, this time with “improved job offers”.
But the bottom line is this is irrelevant, cause I am invalid and I doubt that today a method exists
to allow me to function.
No method exists now and no method will probably exist in the near future,
but I have no peace of mind because of intrusive thoughts/voices.
I’ve obsessed with it for years as well. Ever since they put pressure on me to do so. Not talking about my parents but society.
I want to know where these rabid thoughts are coming from.
I am glad that I am asexual so at least that doesn’t bother me.
Maybe lower your expections/standards? I wanted to be an investment banker or actuary or mathematician. Now I’m trying to be a programmer/developer.
@insidemind there is NO job I can work.
This is an empty obsession.
I am glad that your disease is relatively mild/such that you think of working.
Are you on disability?
We have an expression here in the states. "Where there is a will, there is a way"
The fact that you are concerned about doing something great speaks volumes about your character. I know because I am stuck too.
I would like to work a full time job and earn enough money to live comfortably but I’m afraid that my illness won’t allow it. Anyway don’t give up, if you have the desire I believe that with G-d and luck all things are possible
No I am not.
Maybe you can apply @Erez_Shmerling
Wow that was the nicest most uplifting post I’ve ever seen you make!!
It won’t last long ;). I’m in a caring mood though
@MeghillaGorilla1 I think that in practice, for me to work any kind of job is impossible.
I think that in practical terms @Wave 's advice is better- go on disability.
If healthy and life running the way it should/the way I want I would probably have Phd by now but as they say in Hebrew
(החיים הם לא תכנית כבקשתך - not everything turns out as we want in life).
The reality is that I have to try to go on disability, and only if I get an opportunity to work
only then I will use it and get myself a job I want to do.
If I can’t perform a job I want but can do something else, I will take any job but currently
I can do nothing and I doubt that I ever will, though I remain hopeful.
I don’t like compliments.
You’re right not everything does.
We got dealt a bad hand and have to live with that.
I don’t know what else to tell you. Maybe try will cure psychosis someday and you can follow your dreams.
Or maybe you’ll be so happy with not being tortured all the time that you will be happy with a simple life.
Where I come from money is a high priority. You are literally nothing without it. And if you are mentally ill you are even less! If I can make money I will be able to prove to myself, my friends and the world that I am not an invalid but blessed with a strong will and a fighting spirit.
@MeghillaGorilla1 the brainwashing regarding money is global, it is everywhere.
For it to change we will need to change the economic system and the structure of society.
I don’t feel our worth is related to money.
If you choose to be single it gives you much more freedom money wise.
If you do your best you should be proud of yourself regardless of money
status because as you mentioned we got dealt a bad hand.
I don’t think I’m actually choosing ti be single but I am single and I agree. It’s liberating not having to deal with someone else’s issues all the time
I am repeating a million times:
I want to be a university lecturer.
@Erez_Shmerling, I truly believe you will be able to work one day. You’ve only been in treatment for a few years. It took me ten years before I was able to achieve any meaningful recovery. You have a strong will to achieve things, and that will help you find a way to be successful. It just takes time.
"Intrusive thoughts force me to obsess about ‘career’"
that’s unfortunate. meds can sometimes help with intrusive thoughts. i used to get some prying thoughts that i didn’t want.
Do you have the required degree for it? I’m thinking phd?