I’ve always been an introvert, who internalizes my emotions and thoughts. I’m the same way with my illness, by keeping my delusions to myself and somehow not outwardly going crazy. Now, this could mean my illness isn’t very severe (I very rarely hear voices and see things) and I’m to control myself. Are you able to internalize your delusions from people? I hope this makes sense
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I generally keep my ‘delusions’ to myself these days.
Haven’t really hallucinated much in a while
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Yeah I keep it to myself as well. But lately my symptoms have been getting worse as a period of 8 months of improvement. Has been slipping out to my family like talking out loud with voices this last week that I’m visiting
I never tell my daughter what I’m paranoid about because I don’t want to scare her. But I talk to my husband about it.
I’m pretty much exactly the same. I’ve never completely lost control of myself, I’ve just had a lot of persistent strong symptoms.
I usually keep my delusions to myself because they are my secret or because I suspect anyone who I would normally trust. I did tell some of my paranoid issues with my mother to my husband because I wanted some help dealing with my mom. But I see now that it was me who was the problem, not my mom.
I lived with that secret internal monologue for years. I think it helped me somewhat but it definately was indicitive in my case to the schizoprhenia. I don’t hear voices but do hallucinate occassionally. I think the difference for me is I talk a lot and often. I’ve always talked and that helps. It helps you to think on your feet and play the game. I’m glad for that…
I think any degree of sz is severe. It’s way beyond normal and it affects how you deal with the world negatively! Hang in there!
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I’m still curious as to whether people internalize their delusions/hallucinations. I’ve been doing this a lot lately, makes me wonder if i’m really sick at all
I too tend to internalize things. I don’t often talk about them anymore. My anxiety is mostly under control at least compared to what it used to be so I tend to keep things to myself. There are times I don’t but that’s only when I can’t take it anymore and find I need to talk about them. There was a time I talked a lot about what was going on with me.
I don’t struggle with delusions or hallucinations so I can’t help you there. During my acute phase much of the insanity (delusions etc) were very internal. It was a combination of racing thoughts and rumination. Maybe a little loosening of associations. Maybe a lot. At that point I was lost within my thought process, though outwardly I was only slightly disordered. I had a tendency to hide my bizarre ideas from others. It didn’t help that the people around me were pretty apathetic about the whole thing. So my psychosis went undetected for three days as I spiralled deeper and deeper into madness. Though yes, it was very internal while it was happening. It’s been two years, I still suffer mild non-bizarre delusions though they are more like preoccupations than anything. Not genuine delusions.
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much of your post relates to me. When i was psychotic, i was alone in my apartment and my mind was fading away.
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