I’m so relieved you are in the hospital. I was hospitalized for something similar last year. I wasn’t suicidal, I just wanted to sleep! But when you’re that tired, you just aren’t capable of making safe choices. Have you ever gone in for a sleep study?
I will say, ever since starting CBD oil, my insomnia has gone mostly away. Nothing else has ever worked for me. CBD oil doesn’t work alone. I also take a low dose of unisom or benadryl or melatonin, but I no longer need to take over the recommended dose in order to sleep.
I take 100mg of seroquel a night for sleep. It works well for me. Without it I don’t sleep even with two other meds that are supposed to knock you out. I’m glad you went to the hospital as drinking and sleeping pills does not sound like a good mix. I hope you get some stability soon as I don’t think you are really thinking clearly right now and need to stay close to your treatment team.