plural noun: insecurities

uncertainty or anxiety about oneself; lack of confidence.
“she had a deep sense of insecurity”

synonyms: lack of confidence, lack of self-confidence, self-doubt, diffidence, unassertiveness, humility, humbleness, meekness, timidity, timidness, timorousness, uncertainty, nervousness, hesitancy, inhibition, self-consciousness; More
anxiety, apprehension, worry, unease, uneasiness

“he tried to conceal his insecurity”

•vulnerability, defencelessness, unguardedness, lack of protection, perilousness, peril, danger, riskiness;
instability, fragility, frailty, shakiness, rockiness, unsteadiness, unreliability, tenuousness;

informalchanciness, iffiness;


“we were conscious of the insecurity of our situation”

the state of being open to danger or threat; lack of protection.
“growing job insecurity”

synonyms: unstable, unsecured, loose, rickety, rocky, wobbly, shaky, unsteady, precarious; More
unsubstantial, weak, flimsy, frail, fragile, spindly, decrepit, unsound, unsafe;

informaljerry-built, teetery;

informalwonky, dicky, dodgy

“an insecure footbridge”

antonyms: secure, stable

I had this from the age of 13 on and off