My symptoms are acting up. I’m reading mixed messages into everything. If I crash, the whole family ship is going to sink.
I believe the whole world is mocking me for being a liar, an ass and a ■■■■■■■. I drove the car today and the whole world was coming at me…street signs…billboards…license plates…signs on trucks…people’s t-shirts…radio…computer…newspapers…
I feel like I am the butt of a world-wide joke for all of my lousy past and continued behaviour.
What should I do? If I go to the doctor, they might intern me and they’ll be no one left to look after the place, the pets and the kids.
Surely there is someone who could look after the pets and kids for you if you need to go to the hospital? I would hope so, at least. It sounds like you need the kind of help that you might only be able to get from going to the hospital. I can understand that might be worrisome to do, though. I unfortunately have no other tips to give, but I hope everything turns out alright for you!
Are you on a new medication or perhaps you might be having a medical issue ( high blood pressure/blood sugar problems)? You should get a complete work up just in case it’s your body, not necessarily your mind. Sz medicine can affect so many functions. I feel like that sometimes too. Maybe try something that relaxes you, yoga, read a book, take a walk. Taking care of kids, pets, and a house can be so exhausting! But it never hurts to talk to your doctor and get checked out.
Hey, I unsuspended your other account. There is no shame in asking for help if you need it. Lean on whoever can help you. If you explain the situation to your doctor and ask for an increased dose, he should be able to help you. I don’t know how your doc works, but mine won’t hospitalize me unless he thinks I’m a danger to myself or others. Just saying “I have increased symptoms” shouldn’t be enough.
@PatrickT Contacting your sister sounds like a good option.
Alternatively, do your daughters have a close friend they could stay with for a few days (whose parents you trust to look after your daughters)? If their friend’s house is within walking distance of your house, your daughters could look after the family pets.
Well if you go now, you will probably not stay as long, and the damage after will not be as bad. You will get a vacation and some time to relieve stress. Or you could just get a med increase, and you will be all patched up.
If you wait, the crash could be more catastrophic and the fallout will be worse.
Social media is all black and white now. It either is or isn’t…but people are complicated. There’s no room for patience, nuance, subtlety, thoughtful analysis…etc.
I just played ‘white’ Radiohead, so now I’ll play this…
It sounds like you need the kind of help that you might only be able to get from going to the hospital. I can understand that might be worrisome to do, though. I unfortunately have no other tips to give, but I hope everything turns out alright for you!