What is the impact of long time silence? I am silent and not able to talk to anyone about my problems. Its weird to relate to others. I am isolated. Is it possible to mingle with others. I am scared. Please let me know what are the possibilities.
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You have a wife and child, don’t you interact with them?
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I interact with them very less. I am not able to interact with anyone in detail.
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Do they suffer because of this?
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That could be negative symptoms of sz… hell no…??
Can someone alleviate some heavy tension that is surfacing underneath and not wanting to come out? I am imagining plethora of issues due to that.
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Yes they suffer a lot. I am not engaging myself with them. I am not able to help them with chores. I am simply sitting idle.
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@far_cry0 I am not sure if i have SZ. I am sure i have something seriously wrong. It can be any name. But i want to get rid of that somehow.
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I worry about you. I find it strange that you have been able to work around people for so long and have a family, then all of a sudden you start dramatically deteriorating. Do you think it’s because you suddenly stopped taking your lurasidone, or has it always been this way? Possibly a relapse?
I think u can do something deep breathing excersize… inhale and exhale…!!! Sounds funny tho…!!! I know u are going through lot of stress…!!! I wish u get some peace of mind soon…
I am taking lurasidone. But i am being pressurised by my wife that i look at another pdoc. I dont like her taking total command of my illness. She is doing her work really well. But she does not give me enough space for my illness to recover. She seems to be little pushy. I am trying to make her understand that i need time and i am recovering on the way.
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I am not even able to do deep breathing exercise. My thoughts are fading away.
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Maybe you need a different med combo. An antidepressant could help too. Do you think you could open up on here a bit so you don’t keep everything bottled up?
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It’s important to talk to people. Long-term silence can be damaging to your relationships with others which in turn can be damaging to yourself.
Now it best to try to speak. just about small topics like weather or dinner or small talk in general. This should help you learn to associate talking with less of a fear response. As you gain more confidence you should try to branch out into more topics and talk for longer.
If talking is just too much for you there are other forms of communication. Such as writing down what you want to say. Or typing it out on your phone.
If you don’t know sign language still try to gesture and do charades of sorts (this does not always work well and can cause more anxiety if the person your with is failing to understand what you are trying to communicate)
Learn sign language it makes everything so much easier learn it with your wife then you should be able to communicate.
If you just find it hard to open up your problems try writing them down sometimes it can provide relief
I feel like your wife just want to help it sounds like you are struggling very much. I know it scary to open up to people but please try.
I have been prescribed SSRI which is like anti-depressant i believe. I am not bottling up my feelings but i feel empty inside. If i have something to say i would say. Rather i feel i dont have anything to say. I am dumbstuck. I need more thoughts generated to be able to speak. I am found with thoughts that are useless to say.
What you have suggested is good. But i am not sure if i will be able to even write my feelings. I am becoming morose and not able to communicate my true inner feelings. What i can say is that my family is dependant on me and i am not helping them at all. I am confined to a box and not able to come out of it.
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What is preventing you from opening up?
Perhaps when you are alone just try to talk to yourself about your problems
Like “ok today thing A happened and it effected me in way B” if you find yourself hesitant try to reflect on why.
If you can be open and honest with yourself that’s very important and good.
Small steps you’ll get there
Thanks for trying to talk me through this. I need your help in opening up.
The reason why i am not able to open up is that there were lot of episodes. And i am not able to laugh it off. Or think that that is normal for the diagnosis and move on. I am struck with myself brooding over the problems and not able to come out of it.
There was one episode where i ran away from my wife thinking that there is another girl friend who is trying to help me with my situation. But in reality there is no such girl friend. That time my wife was pregnant. It did not occur to me that she needs me to be there for her. I simply avoided her and hurt her a lot. She was not able to express that to anyone. As we married out of love. That really impacted me a lot. After that I am not the same, I lost myself, my character, my dignity. My wife treats me like â– â– â– â– now. I am not able to talk to her freely. She openly hurts me without even bothering. So I am not able to come out of that as well.
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the long-term effects of isolation are fear. But that does not always have to be the case. It depends a bit on the situation. If you decided at a time in your life not to see people anymore then you did not just make that decision because you feel comfortable with poeple. So i say it’s depends on the reason why you are in a social isolation.
Well based on what I know episodes happen. It’s very rarely fully in your control. As long as you are taking steps to correct your behaviour you are doing the right thing.
It’s hard not to dwell on the past but you have to take it and learn from it try not to keep making the same mistakes.
And if you do make the same mistake again just keep trying to not repeat it. It’s ok to slip up but you have to take steps to improve yourself to prevent it
The past can be painful but try to work on the present so you can look forward to the future.
Have you ever apologized to her? I know it won’t fix everything but it could help ease some of the guilt you feel. And also just trying to be there for her in little ways. Help her with small things around the house and such if you can.
It sounds like she is hurting too. Which does not make it ok for her to be cruel to you. But it does explain some of her reactions to you.
Perhaps try to talk to her about how she feels? Perhaps if you can understand her better you can feel more comfortable being open with her.
Humans change all the time. sometimes for the better sometimes for the worse. If you do not like how you are you can change to be something better.
It’s not easy to do but it is very much worth it. You may never be the same as before but thats not always bad. Just try to improve.
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