Anyone feel the same as this?
I just feel so detached from myself sometimes.
I don’t know if it has a psychiatric term
I used to go with depesonalisation. But I don’t know.
It feels like a dissociative sort of condition.
Sometimes I get so tired of it.
I see some people and they are so free.
I have chains on me, sometimes.
I hate my past.
I think that has a lot lot lot to do with it.
BTW I’m doing okay.
It’s just kind of annoying at times this ‘dissociation’
That sometimes happens to me.
Just wanted to see if I’m alone in this.
I don’t even know if it is clinically dissociation
That I have at times
But I don’t see what else it could be
Sometimes there’s a person I don’t like in life
So if you don’t like a person how does one find the strength to still have concern for their wellbeing?
Is that not really tiring, to care about someone you don’t like?
For me personally I can think of a person I don’t like right now.
If I ask myself am I concerned for their wellbeing? The answer is no because they are likely to draw bad things into their life for being a prick. Why would I waste my energy wishing them well. When I am not a magician anyway who can magic them to stop being a prick.
It’s like being concerned for them when there’s no point.
I just think to myself, let them be them if that means they stop being a prick at some point, then cool.
But, I don’t want to waste my energy caring or in other words praying for them. Because it’s pointless
I guess the fact that I’d be happy for them if they stop being a prick is a form of caring.
Theferore
I agree with you
I can care about someone in some sense but dislike them.
There’s probably people that don’t like me too.
Which is fine.
It’s not like they have intent to harm.
They just don’t like me. Perhaps.
Yes… I’m bored…
I used to feel like omg how dare so and so doesn’t like me
But we are all going different paths experiencing different circumstances so all have our reasons and also right to dislike whoever we feel we dislike as long as we have no intent to harm. Imo
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youre not a fake @Zoe ! youre a great person 
I think it can be difficult to choose to love ourselves sometimes but. I truly believe that we are all worthy of Love and respect. We really are all equals although the ways of the world can make us feel like were less than others. I think most people struggle with seeing the good in themselves. Its like you can see how great everyone else is, but you cant see how great you are
Not everyone looks great to me
How are you doing today?
I think. I’m ■■■■■■■ fantastic
But the thing is I have sort of low confidence
lol true. sorry if im misunderstanding you. i was just going by the title. maybe you are dissociating. I do that too sometimes.
my days going pretty well actually. im feeling hopeful today. trying to get my life together so i can get a job lol
Good luck with the journey
thanks lol. what u gonna do today?
You’re welcome 
I am thinking I might draw soon.
I need to also sort out my organiser diary because it has a tonne of notes in it that I need to see to.
What about you?
lol nice thats so cool. i wish i could draw lol true getting organized? not much just trying to get some of the things on my to do list done. last few weeks ive been making a lot of music so, my life around me is kinda a mess haha have to clean my room, catch up on reading, workout etc. Gained the 10 lbs i lost back so haha time to get my life together 
My advice is to not worry about it. I’ve gone through the same thing, looking at things under a microscope, it’s not necessary. Like:do I love my mom or am I just using her for someone to talk to? Of course I love her! We are not being judged.
Yea it’s mostly work notes.
But also sort of self help notes.
Your day sounds like a good plan!
Take it easy and don’t put too much on your to do list today or else you won’t enjoy it
I can’t remember if you sing too?
I know you create the melodies though.
I’m keen to hear your next piece if you post it.
Thankyou @Jinx for your post.
I don’t know it’s just it sometimes slighlty bothers me that’s all.
Like I feel chains sometimes.
Maybe I’m expecting too much from life. For my condition to be perfect.
I mean honestly it’s not bad at all.
Just this place seems to be very easy and tempting to complain. Lol. So I thought I’d bring it up.
Ugh life!!!
haha thanks, im working on a collaboration with 2 other artists atm. Wil be another few days until its done. thanks for the good wishes I think ill be singing and producing on that one. LOL ill try to take it easy thanks.
Fake fake fake 
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