Most the odd “Zen Bones” stories I used to read were purely anecdotal.
Life’s absurd. Really cool. Totally unfounded in principle. There must be a god or something.
Or maybe that means there is not.
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I agree… life is absurd… I like absurd.
As Terry Pratchett said… One in a million chances seem to happen 9 out of 10 times.
Well… Off to work in the morning for me… eyes are getting tired… have to sleep.
Have a good evening.
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I used to smoke crack and drink lots of beer. I got clean in 1990. It was one of the best things I ever did for myself. It opened up a whole new world for me.
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Yeah man I’m just slipping into it. Drank more days then I have not since the beginning of the month. Not more than a 6 packs most nights.
It feels like I’m retaliating to a bad hand.
Again thought this isn’t really about substance abuse but how I continuously urge surf until I find what to do next. In the void that’s tobacco caffeine and alcohol. Food/music/water is the harmless stuff.
Gotta keep moving forward as the time flys by.
Sometimes people start drinking alcoholically right of the bat. I’m sure some of us have heard stories of people who get REALLY drunk the first time they try alcohol. They almost start off drinking alcoholically the first few times they drink and it can easily become alcoholism. Other people start off slow and it morphs into alcoholism. If alcoholism runs in someones family that puts them at greater risk. And I’m sure we all know that people with schizophrenia are VERY prone to abusing alcohol and drugs.
Yeah I’m trying to be watchful. But really it’s the underlying need to enhance that drives me to it. Boredom. To feel like I’m doing something.
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Yeah, I tried crack out of curiosity and got addicted. I never planned on becoming an addict. Drinking is too easy, not really a good choice of a boredom reliever.
Because that’s what it is. A conscious choice.
I hate to preach, but once you cross a line into alcoholism then drinking is no longer a choice; you have to drink.
I’ve had a back and forth relationship with alcohol. I can choose not to drink… But then what do I do? More coffee lol.
It’s more the principle of consumption. That’s what I want to beat.
I look for things I can consume that will make me feel better. It’s a bad habit of mine. I can go pretty far with it - like putting over five table spoons of sugar on my raisin bran. I do the same thing with caffeine.
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I have a few addictions - one is food, the other is coffee.
I dropped cigs a long time ago and I dropped drinking booze a long time ago.
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Lol dude… Drank till about 1 am. My bro and cousin thought it would be a good idea to get some food around 3. Went to Perkins. Had a few cups of coffee and now I’m wide awake. Laying down though. Stupid how many times I get into this situation.
I really need to drop all the vices. All of them. Then I’ll be healthy as ■■■■ and I can prance around like a holier than though ■■■■.
Seriously though I think I’m done with people too.
My mind is becoming a more interesting place to live. Isolation would be good for me.
I used to smoke 2 packs a day easily - Bad habits can be dropped, though you really really have to want it.
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I just can’t picture what I’d do with myself. It’s a foreign land after 7 or 8 years of smoking and drinking. I’d have to figure it out as I went. I’m probably making it more complicated than it is.
One day you will be free from some of those vices, maybe you are not quite ready yet.
Got to really want it - its difficult to let go sometimes
Yeah definitely not. I’ll start with alcohol though. This month has been pretty ridiculous so far. Should stop that before its a problem. Wasn’t gonna say that earlier when I had a beer in hand.
10 to 20 dollars to get a moderate buzz. Not economical.
No ale. Then no caffeine. Then no tobacco.
One step at at a time - Good luck Bryan!
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Thanks dude. Schfifty five
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I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT, MY MEDICATIONS HELP ME STAY SOBER BETTER THAN ANY ANABUSE EVER DID. RAY 
I’m discovering the little lift you get from accomplishments. Even if its just loading the dishwasher.
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