I have no future ahead of me. I dont want kids most likely will never meet anyone. Once my family dies ill have no one. I have no friends. I only have a sister and we arent really close. Im terrified because this illness has wrecked what little chance of a future ill ever have. Most people have aspirations and careers they would like to do in the future i have nothing. No aspirations no future career choices ect. Im not smart at all. I have severe dyslexia. All i can see for my self is years worth of struggle and torment. I dont know what to do anymore because everyone else has at least one thing going for them even if they cant see it.
I have nothing. My life was wrecked from the moment i set foot on this earth. No one is going to want me at all. And im tired of trying to better myself. I always end up back at square one because im not good at anything. At this point im actually afraid of my future tbh.
I dont really want to die but i dont want to live with nothing going for me. I really am scared and i dont know what to do.
I have no friends, plans, future or prospects either. I don’t care if I die but I’m not going to hurry it along either. I would say that I am mostly content with life.
No im not on an antidepressant. But i am on Zyprexia whcih seems to be working for me im on 7.5 because im pretty sensitive to antipsychotics. I get eye rolling which i know will prevent me from driving. So i feel pretty trapped in my own situation. I cant come off antipsychotics i came off the 3 times and relapsed.
Im also having a pretty low sense of self at the minute because i have put on weight. And i have stress wrinkles from my third relapse. It has all taken a toll on me