Hello everyone,
I’ve been floating around this forum for nearly a couple of weeks but only just worked up the courage to sign up. Just would like the support and to give support in return to others. I have recently been confirmed schizophrenic (was a toss up between psychotic depression and schizophrenia, but the psychotic symptoms didn’t improve with my mood and have lasted about a year now). Just to share a little bit about myself - i hear voices in my head, one very negative and critical, and the rest just chat amongst themselves and say random stuff. I try not to focus on them. I’ve also had some minor visual and tactile hallucinations. I guess i have persecutory delusions. I think objects in my house have been bugged including the tv but when it is bad pretty well much all electrical stuff will be bugged in my mind. I’ve thought people are conspiring against me, following me in their cars, monitoring me 24/7, that someone’s tried to poison me. I’ve been convinced that certain people aren’t human but actually aliens. Sometimes i get really agitated, and sometimes i sort of become almost catatonic where i struggle to move or talk. I takes Ziprasidone 80 mg twice daily but it isn’t covering my symptoms. I get bad breakthrough symptoms as one dose is ending and i’m due to take the other one. It also does absolutely nothing for my negative symptoms. I struggle to shower regularly, brush my teeth, change my clothes, cook, clean or make any real valuable contribution at home. I have no motivate, drive, interest. I’ll be switching to Clozapine soon as i’ve been on a few other antipsychotics but they either had side effects i didn’t like or they made things worse. On a brighter note - i do actually work. It is my area of sanity. It forces me to be functional in someway. I live in Australia, and would love to know if there are any other aussies on this site. That’s enough from me now. How about you?