Don’t make me say the full word.
I feel unloved and like those who say they love me could abandon me at any moment, and that if I burden anyone irl with how I feel they’ll feel disgusted and reject or abandon me.
I’m not sure I want to stick around earth much longer. I’m not planning anything, but I feel my brain giving up.
I’m so sad and stressed, I feel helpless and hopeless and it disgusts me.
I don’t know a non medical way to break out of it. I don’t want to have to take prn, it makes me so sluggish and thirsty.