I’m having a pity party today.
Last year I was an A student. Then this fall a B now this semester a C. You need a C+ to pass and graduate. I’m totally freaking out. I’m not retaining any information even though I get the material. I guess this is fallout from the depression and med changes. I’m trying to take care of myself eat healthy, get quality sleep. Have had health problems lately with asthma that’s gotten really bad that I can barely walk from the house to the car without having trouble breathing. So my activity has been limited. Went to the Dr for that, new inhaler seems to be working but still afraid of another attack, cause I passed out the last time and bashed my face on the floor. It’s hard not to drink lately but I know that always makes things worse. It used to be I’d feel worse a couple of weeks later but now I’m depressed the day after drinking and really moody and mean.
And here I am back to grieving for who I used to be “before.”