I’ve made amends with the friends I used to question. Even the college guys.
Your issue might be that you are a very caring person and very few can match that.
My friends are still more interested in other things. One group parties and have some 4th dimensional ■■■■-fest. The other crowd has their music and they practice constantly and take it very seriously. Then all my college friends have gfs/wives and decent jobs.
I don’t really connect on any of those notes.
It really only takes finding one person you can really connect with to alleviate this need for friendship. If you find that person or a couple people. You might be more content with just letting other people be who they are. You are a smart person @minnii and you have a higher capacity for thinking and it shows in your concerns for everyone.
If you do get back into school and take to a program that reflects/requires your capacities you will likely find people who also have that capacity. You’ll have the schoolwork and environment to bond over and from there you might make long term friends who really care about you.
These are just some thoughts.