I'm afraid I will have to live in a psych ward because of this illness

A psychward won’t stop a delusion in anyway. It will take away your freedom to access your computer when you want, to watch what you want when you want on TV, you will not be able to cook what you want when you want, you can’t do anything. Its the worst f*cking place in the world to be. I think its better to just try different meds in the comfort of your home.