but what if i have never been very psychotic at all but just a bit delusional at the beginning?
Then without meds you would be lost in delusions without insight
my psychosis is very special , i dun have any delusional thoughts, not being tracked by people, not thinking i am God, not hearing voices, but just cannot leave my own world of inside-chatter, dun have my own thoughts, thinking ability drop significantly as well as my cognition , learning ability is deprived, i cannot learn a new language, i just do not possess the ability to distinguish the vocabs/grammer out when i listen to a sentence with the new vocabs/grammer i learnt. it is a nightmare. i am not even able to learn piano , it is like a guy without mind that see a picture of notes that give no meaning to him but just reflex
at the time of past few years, i had no idea oh why i have been shaking my legs, walking around in my room, stuffy nose, behaving weirdly/able to behave normally, having great sex drive/ being impotent, are the effects of these drugs/ off them (sometimes), but now i realized it was them doing their jobs. should i be happy or not that they make me lose a few years of life which are without heads?
After a few years on meds, they took me off. That’s when I got really sick.
how abt before meds?
I echo this. They took me off of meds as well. I did really well for the next 6 months and then I was hearing voices. Eh…
I relapsed even though I took my medication as prescribed.
if not taking meds is the only way to cure this illness completely then taking meds will never make our recovery process come to an end.
Before meds, I was just a wacky pot smoker. I was looking for help, however, because my grades kept getting lower and Vietnam was up my butt.