I’m going through massive disappointment at the moment. I can’t actually say what. But it would have been a ticket to proper independence. It was dangled in front of me, then just taken away.
Sorry to be so vague, but I don’t want to be identified.
The title is a line from the song below.
sorry @everhopeful hope you feel better! tough times is what makes us stronger… you can get through this!!
I’m sorry everhopeful. I’m rooting for your wellbeing here. Hope things turn for the best
Take it easy. I wish u would feel better tomorrow.
Yeah Cannibals ,
“tease” Is Such a Great Word … ,
It Sure Grabs Thine Attention , No Doubt … ,
How About Instead … ,
" I haven’t changed but I know i’m not the same " … ,
Perhaps (???) … … …
It was a bit of a body blow to be honest. I’m back on benzos just to numb myself. It’s been 5 days. I’m lucky I didn’t hit the booze. (I’m a recovering alcoholic) .
Which reminds me, time to take another benzo.
Anyway, thanks for allowing me to vent guys.
Dude ,
You Will Be Going Throo At Least One Dai of Terrible Nonsense if You Keep , Playing Drug Addict … ,
An Escape As Easy as Xanax ( OR ) Whatever , May Seem An Easy Way to Skip tha Day and Get Some More Sleep , ( OR ) Whatever but You Will Have to Pay tha Price … ,
( OR ) Am e(Y)e Already Preaching to What is Already Aware of Such (???) … … …
Life taking things back is one of my big fears. When you grow up dirt poor and then achieve some level of comfort. you feel like you didn’t earn it. That someone will find you out and take everything back from you and put you “back where you belong”. I have similar anxiety over my level of recovery from Sz. It’s like Fate will go, “no, you belong in the Quiet Room in the psych ward. Back you go.”
I consistently have horrible dreams about this. Had them for more years than I can count.
Pixel.
I’m sorry this happened… I hope things will get back on track for you soon.
Good luck and I hope things go your way again.
And this happens at Christmas time, no less. 
Sending good vibes and best wishes your way.
Pixel.
Oh, don’t numb yourself with benzos, you’ll only feel worse after they stop working!
I know it is hard,I do it too but sometimes I decide to feel my feelings, cry, yell, whatever it takes, it will make you feel alive instead of being dead.
I for sure know how it’s like to feel miserable.
I was the best student at my college and I fell so low after that…also i was on my own half a year ago and now i cant afford it…but life still goes on and it still brings some good and bright moments.
Sorry you’re going through disappointments I’ve been thru plenty myself. The older I get the more convinced I am is that life is a succession of problems, and we need to learn coping skills to deal with them. One coping skill I like is distractions like watching a funny or happy movie, or coloring and drawing or a bubble bath and music. When life hands us lemons we learn how to make lemonade. Try not to dwell or ruminate on the disappointments and try to do things that make you happy to counteract and balance the disappointments. Let’s face it sometimes life is hard and scary, we need to find ways to nurture ourselves and others thru these hard times.
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