If I were to die

Would anyone even notice I was gone? My husband plays video games all day when he is home. I tried to “play” with him this morning, and he did what i’m sure he thought was a very discreet move to avoid my touch. Am I so awful? And my kids won’t spend time with me. My daughter won’t come to my room anymore, even to watch her favorite shows or play video games. My son only talks to me in passing. My oldest daughter is buried deep in college and her own, new life. And I’m just here, rotting away. Getting fatter. Getting dumber. Getting… worse. I’m just not worth the air or space that I take up.

Am I the only one that feels this way?

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You’re loved by a lot of people. They just don’t have to express it constantly.

I think you should hang around more people though, to feel emotionally fulfilled. You can’t pick your family so much, but you can pick your friends.

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Your presence alone is valuable. :slight_smile:

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I feel this way so many times. Sometimes I wonder if someone would miss me or cry for me if I die.

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I wonder who will be at my funeral… It would be one depressing sight

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Once your SZ is in remission, you’ll make friends pretty easily.

Demand that much from the universe. Keep it in mind always.

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Aw Thanku so much :slight_smile:

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I want to apologize for the depressing post, y’all. I’m just not quite right at the moment. Apparently, something I wrote set off red flags, so today, my pdoc set up a video appointment for tomorrow. I hope she can help me.

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I hope everything goes well with the appointment.

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I’m sure that your family loves you @Happy_H

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Stay strong and be gentle with yourself @Happy_H :sunflower::sunflower::sunflower:

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