Would anyone even notice I was gone? My husband plays video games all day when he is home. I tried to “play” with him this morning, and he did what i’m sure he thought was a very discreet move to avoid my touch. Am I so awful? And my kids won’t spend time with me. My daughter won’t come to my room anymore, even to watch her favorite shows or play video games. My son only talks to me in passing. My oldest daughter is buried deep in college and her own, new life. And I’m just here, rotting away. Getting fatter. Getting dumber. Getting… worse. I’m just not worth the air or space that I take up.
I want to apologize for the depressing post, y’all. I’m just not quite right at the moment. Apparently, something I wrote set off red flags, so today, my pdoc set up a video appointment for tomorrow. I hope she can help me.