I was told when I was growning up . Over and over that I was born dead. With this in mind might someone explain to me why or what purpose there is for my being alive now?
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I guess maybe thier isnt much of an awnser then.
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Now I am also asking does anyone care or acknowledge my presence in this forum or should I remove myself from in here?
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Hey. Not sure how to respond. I don’t base my existence on what others say to me. I do me. That can be hard because you’ll hear a lot of rubbish from people but what makes you happy?
Do stuff that makes you happy and not what others think of you and your ahead of the game…It’s hard. Sz affects your sense of self and doesn’t really make you social but it’s worthwhile participating with life so do what you like and treat others accordingly.
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Now I truely thank you. You at the moment are my lihht in a very dark place atm. Just note I am not sucidal, but very depressed from an arguement over stupid cats and simple damn things.
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Honestly I try to avoid drama in life. I do poorly with it but I can understand where your coming from.
People argue over totally bogus stuff and you just need to take the high ground…Does it matter to you to leave some ground to the arguement and just accept the easy road…?
When I’m in a relationship that is me. I take the easy road but if it’s something that is happening all the time I might speak up and have a go…otherwise…I like my peace. I really do so most times I do what gets me by!
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I was trying to avoid it all. I hate arguing and talking bad ■■■■… I feel so bad about it. Her bday is monday , and we were all to celebrate it with her, but I was so mad I told her to leave me out of it if she couldnt give me a chance to try to fix it all.
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Yeah it’s a tough cop but maintaing peace is good for me. If it gets out of control I’m out totally and that is that but honestly. Keep the peace where you can. I agree. Arguing is totally shite and I hate it too but that is why I’m an appeaser…It doesn’t affect me to lose sometimes…I’d just rather everything even out.
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This what I was trying to do as well… keep the peace but it got totally outta control.
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I also have started vibryd 20 mg for depression on top of everything.
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Hang in there. It takes a while for meds to work. Just do what you need to do to survive and keep cool. It’s hard but it’s not an easy scenario for anyone.
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The sad part is how tonight ended. I told her not to talk to me, and recommened her to go to bed… i felt worse about that and i never sleep with out her beside me so i am sleepless and awake alone in our living room. wondering and have my mind go thru crazy thoughts…of loosing her and everything…
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Hey need ot jet soon but it’s tough. We all experience those fights and you just deal with what happens. There’s no rules or regulations to it. It’s not easy but just get some sleep and see where things lie in the morning. It’s not a deal breaker so avoid the bad stuff and focus on the positive. You’ll get there. Stress isn’t good for sz and our minds will drive us mad anyways. Avoid that.
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Hey @DragonStorm! Sorry to hear you feel this way. All good I can say to soothe you is that all life is precious, no matter whether you’re born alive or dead. As for a purpose of life - well, that is completely up to you. Your life is in your hands, so you can choose a direction that gives you meaning. Just for your comfort - we enjoy having you on the forum, please stick around. 
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Anytime I think, that dead would be better, I get a chance after a while, to buy myself something new. Like this new computer I’m using now or the XBox Series S I bought. Too Books or DvD’s. And then I feel better. I heard once, that just unhappy people buy stuff and that the happniness from buying stuff fades after couple of days.
I am not sure. It could be worse than that currently. My psychosis involves violence. If I stay out of that then I can buy myself something to make me happy. Currently struggeling with quitting smoking. But I put that one on outside pressure. If I pay off this computer in the next two years, then I will be having more money monthly to put aside. Which would lead to new stuff.
But hell, what else should I do. I’m no longer interested in sports or going out. But going out is bound to spending money, which I really don’t have a lot. And I’m just going out for walks if the sun is shining. Now it’s rainy all days here in germany.
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What do you mean born dead?
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Yea I don’t know but don’t listen to what smack people talk. It doesn’t help. Your alive! Don’t dwell on what people tel you
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When I was born I was not breathing or moving or reacticve to outside stimulus.
Thanks for explaining it…sweldon001
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You are still significant. In my eyes you are still a normal person.
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