No depression, no more stress. No voices or paranoia. Never having to worry about money or where I’m gonna get drugs. No more struggling to work for useless money. I would never have to worry about anything but I’m just too scared. Ive been ■■■■■■ up for a long time and if i was just brave enought to do it then i wouldn’t have to worry about anything.
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You wouldn’t be able to feel that you weren’t worrying about anything, because you wouldn’t be there. You’d be dead. Gone.
You don’t have to feel like this. You can get help. Maybe seek help to quit the drugs too. Detox sucks ass, but it’s worth it when you come out of it on the other side.
And the suicidal thoughts and the feeling of hopelessness can go away if you seek help and maybe change your medicines.
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You only get one chance at life. Why throw it away?
Did you read the thread about sz getting better with age? So many people chimed in about how things got easier and how they were happy they didn’t end their lives when they were younger. Things do get better. Maybe not today, and maybe not tomorrow, but they do.
Please get help, and don’t wait. If you are feeling this way, something isn’t right. Have you been feeling this way for a while? If so, can you talk to a family member/ friend or get a hold of your pdoc so that you can get treatment sooner rather than later? If not, can you call a crisis hotline? 1-800-273-8255 is the national number. You can also text NAMI to 741-741 for text support if you prefer not to talk on the phone. If you don’t think that a phone call or text is enough, please go to a hospital. We love you on here and don’t want to see anything happen to you.
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I had the same exact mindset when I first went to college at age 18. I really wasn’t worried about death. I was terrible at school and just wanted to do nothing. I ended up going to 3 different colleges and transferred before I got in trouble for having bad grades.
After about a decade of some success and a lot of failures I’m a firm believer that your problems don’t leave you when you die Just think of each day as a new day.
You have a lot going for you. You’re smart, tall, and seem to be pretty level headed. I took a long break and did nothing for a couple of years. Now I basically have to start all over again. Fight through it the best you can.
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Hugs. I’m sorry you’re still feeling this way. I know how hard you have been trying to stay positive. I do think you’re making progress, even though it doesn’t feel that way to you. You never used to even be able to pretend to be happy.
Things really do get better. The first ten years were definitely the hardest for me. But, over time, I learned coping skills and slowly figured out how to be happy with my life. Keep trying, and you’ll eventually find things that help. The important thing is to never give up. Taking breaks is different than giving up. If you need to take a break from trying so hard, that’s okay. Fighting with your brain constantly is hard. Just pick yourself up again when you’re done resting.
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The after life could be worse than this one. Maybe that’s why nobody’s in a rush to get there.
If you’re feeling down the best thing to do is to talk to somebody. Anybody but ideally someone on your medical team.
You’re not alone in your struggling. Lots of people here feel the same pain. I know I do.
Keep fighting @KingKazuma. We all care about you.
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you don’t have to be in such pain all the time over worrying about bills and your drugs…seek help brother…you deserve happiness and seeking help is the only way out…suicide is always a mistake…all you will do is traumatize those who love you…
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I somehow still enjoy dumb humor
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That’s hilarious! I’m glad you can still laugh.
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It’s Bunzilla!
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I want a bunny that big. I guess if i wasnt alive i wouldnt be able to rub my bunnies
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That’s true. They’re pretty cute. Do you have any new pictures of them?
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Adorable!!! What are they eating?
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Papaya tablets. It breaks down the hariballs since they cant spit them back up like cats. Right now they are eating hay.
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You’re such a good pet owner!
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I hope you can get through this rough spell. I understand you confusion and feelings of hopelessness. But it will get better. Please don’t hurt yourself. Get help if necessary. Your bunnies need you. And I suspect that many of your loved ones would be devastated if you gave up too. As would the other members of this community.
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What about your bunnies? They need you. And truth be told you don’t need courage to die but rather you need courage to live. Be strong.
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@KingKazuma Are your bunnies Californians? My sister has two Californian rabbits. Her daughter showed them in ag class.
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Thank you for taking such good care of your rabbits, @KingKazuma.
That’s very special!
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