Part time, temp, and probably minimum wage job today and tomorrow picking up stuff, cleaning, and learning stuff. Basically basic tools and construction. Step-dad was helping me make some extra change and teaching me stuff. He’s doing good things for me. I think our relationship has improved over the years and I have a more positive view of him. I think I respect and care about him for sure.
It’s probably only going to be a few times total – of me working. But today I left at 9AM and came home at 6PM. I was only working a fraction of that – most of it was traffic and commuting, but I feel more upbeat and positive. I don’t think I’ll ever go back to school but maybe I can get a job in construction as a laborer some day. My sister was making 40 bucks an hour doing that + had benefits full time as a female construction laborer…
It was a volunteering thing – helping out my step-dad. I felt like I was sweating and getting exercise and my head felt clear and I smoked less and wasn’t bored and was drinking less monster drinks. I felt like I didn’t need them as my head was focused on work. I didn’t really take a break, but we worked like 4-5 hours tops today. That could be 40-50 bucks at least for me. Not rich, but hey, could buy me some smokes and give me more self esteem and confidence in life. I also noticed interacting with others has a AP like effect and starves off the dementia like psychosis I have – the cognitive decline and negative symptoms.