I wish I didn’t exist!

I hate my life! My doctor is putting me on disability which means i’ll never make friends! Which means like always i’ll never socialize. Nobody ever wants to hangout or talk to me anyways. I just wish I was dead!

What country are you from? If you’re in the US you don’t have to go on disability

US and I’m being put on disability because of my schizophrenia I seem not to be able to hold a job. I’m always confused can’t communicate well.

You still have a choice. If you choose to go along with the doctor and go on disability, you can go off it later and go back to work when you find the med(s) that work

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If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.

You can also call a suicide prevention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries.

International suicide hotlines:

http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html

http://www.suicidestop.com/suicide_prevention_chat_online.html

Suicide hotlines in the U.S.:

https://afsp.org/find-support/

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org

According to my doctor there are no more meds. We tried pretty much all of them in different what’s.

Did you try Clozapine?

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Why does being on disability mean you can’t make friends? There are mental health clubs you can go to, and you can hang out with people there.

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Hang in there, many of us have been in the exact same position as you. I have very few friends also, but the people I do have in my life are great people. You can make it through this. There’s been many great people, and ARE many great people who suffer from a mental illness of some sorts so you are not alone in this.

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If you want to make friends see if you can join a Clubhouse for the mentally ill. There’s a lot of social activities. I used to go and I liked it

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Being on disability is nothing to be ashamed of and most schizophrenics aren’t social anyways. I have tons of friends. I never talk to them. They remember me when I was cool and had a life and they don’t understand why I won’t drink a beer with them or want to go hang out at a bar all night.

I am not the same guy I used to be.

In any regards it’s certainly nothing to get suicidal over. You have to accept your illness. I have gone back to work recently and I feel good about it this time. My Social Security will stop this month but I still get a disability check from the VA and I am grateful for it. I just can’t do the things I used to be able to do.

It took me 11 years to get here. I have failed at many jobs while I was sick. I am stubborn and kept trying. I was too sick then. My wife has no faith in me but this time I think I can do it. You have to give it time.

Hopefully you will get stable and cheer up. You will have plenty of time to make new friends.

Good luck to you.

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Thanks @TomCat your words actually made me feel better.

Everyone else I don’t know anything about mental health clubs here where I am from.

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Go here: https://clubhouse-intl.org/ And look for locations near you

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I wish I existed more.

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I live a great life. Sure it’s different from most and I’m pretty social but it’s on my terms and I enjoy myself.

I’m on a pension over here, our disability. I do volunteer work and live as large as I can. I live with family so I have some disposable income. I’m very happy because work means stress and that is something that brings out the paranoia.

If your young then you’ve time. I didn’t get diagnosed till I was 29. Lots of wasted years and I’d hit the mental health system before when I was 23. Don’t give up hope and it pays to be positive.

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Amen to that…

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