I would be a much happier person if i didn’t use drugs. I dived in though. Like diving head first in a 3 foot swimming pool. Ur going to hit ur head. It isn’t worth it. If you stay away from substances then you’ll feel better in the long term. Don’t do what i did. What would KingKazuma not do is my best advice. You have a lot to live for. Don’t take the same path as me. Help yourself by fulfilling your goals. Your a good person that can lead your own path. My path is full of self hate and self abuse. Don’t follow me to the abyss. If this gives you any insight im glad if not then your way beyond me already. Why am i saying this stuff its just dumb self rambling but please stay away from psychoactive chemicals and know what you put into your body. You’ll feel a lot better.
Im bound to overdose one day because I can’t control myself
I recently started going to NA. I’m clean from all substances since December 26th. Try going to a meeting. I couldn’t stop on my own. I had to rely on my higher power. Good luck.
It’s not impossible to stop drinking and doing drugs. I got clean and sober in 1990 after smoking crack for four years. Theoretically I’ve saved thousands of dollars by quitting drugs. I’ve also saved my health.
In the AA, CA, and NA meetings I’ve been to I’ve seen so many so-called “hopeless addicts” or “hopeless alcoholics” who had done drugs and drank for 10, 15, or 20 years. Some of them were self-admittedly the ragged people you see in parks passed out on a park bench in a pool of their own urine. sleeping off a day of drinking. Or the ex-cons who did drugs for twenty years, inside or outside of prison or jail.
Or the bored housewife who starts off taking a couple of drinks to relax in between doing the dishes and caring for three kids. The one drink a day leads into three drinks a day. And it becomes a habit to start off the day with a drink first thing in the morning, two in the afternoon, and five at night until it progresses and she’s a full-blown alcoholic who drinks to get drunk every day. These are real examples and I’ve seen them and many like them join AA, and get sober and rack up ten or twenty years of consecutive sobriety.
I’ve seen it proved countless times that it doesn’t matter what drugs you do, how long you’ve been doing them or the quantity that you use, you can still get clean. I’ve heard a million testimony’s with my own ears that proves this. I will end by saying, yes, I know some people with schizophrenia find meetings uncomfortable and they are afraid that people will pick on them or bother them. I’ve never seen it happen. One reason is that many members besides people with chronic mental illness, have been in psyche wards themselves. So they are understanding.
This might not help but hopefully someone gets something out of this. Good luck.
My sister was hooked on meth for a long time but she was able to get help. My dad has been sober for five years and goes to AA twice a week. I drink myself and while I don’t know what I’ve done to my body so far it’s something that I need to eliminate. I guess when you go to bed and wet yourself then a change in lifestyle is in order.
I made 6 months of sobriety from cocaine, heroin, weed, and alcohol last week. It’s tough but totally worth it. Most of the time I felt like I didn’t deserve to be sober that one day I will overdose and finally die. Getting sober in 2017 has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. Talking to the right people helps and that’s probably what you need, reaching out to the right help.
I’ll have one year sober from marijuana on Feb. 15th. I did have one slip up between then and now but I choose to continue counting the days. We strive for progress, not perfection as they say in 12-step. I’ve been hiding the fact that I’ve been having strong urges the past week or so. Hopefully sharing will get me through god willing.
