I got extremely anxious this afternoon. I had no idea how to explain it to my colleague. So I just packed my things, told the manager I am not feeling well and left.
It may have been partly to do with the fact that my friend messaged me telling me how depressing it is on her holiday. And also that I have to read a lot in my job. I read one case where a 14 year old boy got raped by a teacher. I read loads of them. And my colleague a few seats away was talking to a teacher on the phone telling him that his police check hasn’t come back normal. I heard my colleague using her voice.
I cry this out today. But tomorrow is another day. I won’t let this get to me… I cannot let this get to me. This will not get to me.
reading about rapes(or other crimes ) would make lots of people feel anxious(or depressed). that job must be for truly jaded hard-nosed people. is this job or one like it your regular and long term line of work? your friends communication with you was probably just the last little bit that crossed over into “too-much”?
your not fired or quitting yet? can you sneak off somewhere like a bathroom stall and listen (earphones) to single song you really like? maybe a favorite utube vid under 5 minutes of your favorite stand up? maybe it will be enough to balance out the good and bad of the day and not have to leave.
I’m not gonna quit. I’m going to complete the contract. I had a bad day but it’s fine. I’ll be ok by tomorrow. I also asked the boss to give me other stuff so I am not constantly doing the same thing.
i dont think the people she works with is bad. i think she might have to read crime reports as part of her job. At least that is what i make of it. I think she hates the repetion of reading, but not sure. yet i cant help to wonder if the subject she is reading could be affecting her too? some dont get bothered by it.she may or may not be one.
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