Yesterday, I went into Walmart and everything was bright, loud, and noisy. I felt overwhelmed and felt like I was going to get a panic attack. It was so bad that I had to wear my sunglasses and had to ask my mom to leave early. Then we went to this restaurant. I was so nervous. I could hear every clatter and chatter there. I could pick apart each stimulus. It’s like I could hear dozens or hundreds of things going on independently and I couldn’t turn it off. It was freaking me out internally. I was sweating and feeling like I was going to shake. The best analogy is it’s like hearing voices. It’s so distracting and terrifying. On top of that, I started getting racing thoughts, delusional thoughts, and felt like I was going to freak out. I took my medication and it kind of helped. I was heavily sedated but I still had anxiety and delusions. This lasted until I got home and went to bed.
This is so disabling.
I want to know if anyone else gets this? And if so, how do you deal with it? Also, is this psychosis? What do you call it?