I want to read Billy Meier's book

I am really interested in extraterrestrial stories and spiritual teaching. I have read a few books about stories from et and i enjoy it. I like to read about life elsewhere. But every time I read, I have a relapse. There were voices who read with me and talk to me. This is my only interest these days about spiritual life. I want to know more. It’s difficult to grasp the concepts as there are a lot of similar terms. I’m not reading good enough. I wish I can get to know it all. I don’t know if this curiousity is my problem.

I was really into the concept of et not long ago. Then I strayed away from it, now it’s back again. I don’t think it promotes my illness in any way. Only enhances life experience.