Hello everyone I am new here, my name is Meg. I am diagnosed bipolar with psychosis after I had a psychotic episode from taking Lexapro (i was great on it until i became psychotic all of a sudden) . Since then I have not gone back to normal and have tried many meds, now taking Abilify for it.
The thing is, I am not sure if I still want to take meds as they kill my brain (literally), I can’t concentrate nor have will to do anything anymore, just feel sleepy and depressed all the time… My (or rather, some) intrusive thouhgts and such are at bay but when I go out I still feel everyone is talking about me and rreading my thoughts, or someone is watching/following me which makes me have panic attacks.… Before this I was still having my mind read but no panic attacks and overall I was very good, active and happy. I Want to go back to how i was. I’ve talked to my doctor about this but he is insistent on keeping treatment as it is. And he says if I stop I will be hospitalized to keep me on line. My family agrees with it as they want me out and are unsupportive. I am diagnosed OCD and PTSD also and medicated for it and these conditions are worse also. I am thinking about stopping taking meds for good. I feel the meds are doing this to me. Since I 1st took meds for my OCD I have been a trainwreck… I need help. What should I do?? I am not allowed to change psychiatrists as this is the 3rd one and my family is sick of me changing. =Thanks for any advices